A crisis of faith.....
It’s quite common for me to have doubt in my abilities with a camera whether it is shooting something I have for years (In my case Ice Hockey) or being asked to try shoot something new?
I’m sure I’m not the only photographer to have this same crisis on a regular basis. It doesn’t matter how many people you know stop you or comment on a Social media post to say that they like your photo of X, Y or Z? You still feel inside that you are not as good as Joe Bloggs Photography!
This week I did something I have never done, I invited friends from my personal Facebook account to like both my Ice Hockey & Work Pages. The main reason for this was that back in September we lost an old school friend who died suddenly a month short of his 40th birthday. This shook myself & many of my school friends into action to re-connect with each other via social media & even met up for a few drinks. There were quite a few surprised raised eyebrows when I said I am a photographer & explained what I do.
I’m not going to lie I was shocked how many jumped on board & had looked through my work & liked it! My next thought was, OK? Let’s share some more stuff that I haven’t published so I delved into my archives & posted the images I took whilst I was working at the Wilton Classic & Supercars show in June that had been sat on my computer. So I trimmed down the 1700 images I had edited & posted 3 albums (one for each day I was at the event) & the “Likes” started coming in.
There was a comment from a photographer from Essex on one of the albums that I responded & got into a conversation about the event, including a comment about my images. I thanked him & explained about me being my harshest critic, to which he said that I shouldn’t be as my images were “Stand out”.
The comments he made really made me think “Maybe I CAN do this & do it well!!”
So on my new buoyancy I decided to look at some of my wedding photography & put together an album to show some more of my capabilities. Alas the my bubble was burst as I came across some images that I wasn’t pleased with & immediately picked up the phone to ring my good friend & Mentor Simon of Simon Ward Photography who said that EVERY photographer goes through it & it is a good thing as long as you know where to stop, as at the end of the day it’s the client’s opinion that matters not yours, of course the only way you improve at anything is to spot where you have made mistakes or see what to do differently next time. The important thing is not to give up & throw the towel in if you are passionate about your (in my case) art.
So I’m not quite ready to throw the towel in yet, far from it!!
On Sunday I am trying my hand at Baby portraiture for the 1st time by taking photos of my friends Grand Daughter that he never got the opportunity to meet. I’m sure he will be there with us & having a giggle at me & my camera getting covered in Baby wee!
I look forward to sharing the results soon!
Until next time.......